just a Dream

أَعُوذُ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّيۡطَٰنِ ٱلرَّجِيمِ، بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

i dreamt a dream with you, a little bit before fajr this morning. we were sitting in the backseat of a car, maybe a fancy one, being driven somewhere. can't really say for sure who was driving (or other minor details), because you'd captured my attention. i was amazed to see you, and you were radiant, beautiful. we talked for a bit, then the dream transitions to us walking side by side, maybe to an event or something like that. but really, for me it was more stunning to be near you. our conversations continued, ya Rabb i wish i could remember what they were about. but i remember one moment, while in the course of walking and natural hand/arm motions, my hand incidentally touched you and so you walked a little faster lol. 

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a person is nothing without our dreams, our penultimate aims. the only real question that remains = is the dream worthy of having? and this is the entire context of why and how i can internalize my bond with my Creator so strongly. 

if i aimed simply and only for this life, then i would have left alone the consequences and possibilities of Eternity itself. how is this sensical? would i limit my acceptance of what i will do, to what my senses can grasp?...ignoring how much is beyond my senses yet still existing? honestly, disbelief is utter stupidity to me. the only root for it i can see is an impression/delusion that there is no accounting and death is a final seal for the living. and the only ones whose eyes are so blinded are the ones who rejected acknowledging any favors or blessings Allah gave them. if you can see one, you will see another, and another, until the pathway itself is full of His grace that permitted your eyes to open. 

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alhamdulillah for everything He does, for letting me come to know such beloved exist, to keeping them safely, even if for some they're preserved in my soul and not externally expressed.  i hope just that He never leaves me to myself, and that He grants peace to my ummah, ameen.