Eid, and of the moment

أَعُوذُ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّيۡطَٰنِ ٱلرَّجِيمِ، بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

 

 

 

alhamdulillah, I live to see another Eid, a chance to say Mubarak to my beloved, so...

 

Eid Mubarak!!!!! 💓

 

 

though, it is true that part of me still pulls/shies away from humanity lol. Alas, people in general I tend to find no peace with, but with my Gift and my fam keeping their bonds solidified, it keeps me in a better place too alh. 

very glad to see the pup so grown and looking beautiful and healthy, it seems our dua found its roots and shall go onward :) ....I've been keeping up with the news. subhanaAllah what can I say, it seems the region is slipping back into chaos as its done few times in recent memory. would that I knew a human remedy to such ills, but I do not. no answer people seem to find has ever brought peace there, and I expect that only true unbreakable sabr is the recourse. I selfishly wish for my Twin to be forever safe, to be distant from where the danger is greatest. the self has conceived of perhaps never being able to hear from you again in this life, and the thought is...a bit too heavy to bear. if you took the time to help me through  likely the worst year of my existence, it's only fair you stick around for all the rest of it too. good bad amazing terrible unimaginable, resonance from the Gemini is a thing I'd like to know in the back of my mind for all the ups and downs of this earthly life, iA.

how special would it be, if i knew of a way to instantly lighten the worries of my beacons. distance, i know it too well, and why it remains, but it doesn't change the innate desire to know how you fare, to find my relief inside your own. i suppose that is what dua is for, to seek our Rabb when we try to reach for something or anything that mere human effort is insufficient for. this seems relative, but it's not. not for me, as my own abilities have never gone as far as i'd like them to. thus my Rabb's guidance and preservation of what's precious is so necessary...can't go without this.

more things to be written, soon inshaAllah. fasting is finito, as are classes, and the mind and ocean finally may have a bit of time to actually breathe. that will be welcome iA