أَعُوذُ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّيۡطَٰنِ ٱلرَّجِيمِ، بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
just like that, a bit earlier than expected, was this one tiny blessing that wove its way into my life, erasing all questions, just in herself a fountain, evoking love and tenderness, with tiny little fingers and toes, that i could wrap around my own, every movement she makes, every breath cascading into yawn, every cry for hunger or relief, every random sleepy motion, everything she does and is, all of it borne right into and out of my ocean.
so long as He has me living and breathing, bi ithniAllah this littlest beloved will never ponder a second outside the waves, always implicit in knowing: to be loved and living is one and the same, the spokes and wheel all in a singular motion. what shall i name this most special of all beacons? not quite certain yet, perhaps my Sun or Sunlight, perhaps my Breeze, or the Wind of my means, or the Spring of wholeness that i will pull (iA) with me to our Firdaus, where our imaginations and wonder only open the doors to possibilities?
oh dear beloved, constellations and heavenly objectives, wish i could hold you altogether, be wrapped up in these embraces, the lover with his loved, but He tries me as ever with such distance, but...never think for a moment you're outside my horizon, absent from my skyline. one Day, if He had ever shown care to this slave of His, i will plead Him for your company, no matter the situations, or histories, or rejections, or dismissals, or utter ignorance i find myself too oft close with, i know for whom i seek, the places and mechanism of keys held to your dreams.
this life is long, but my Rabb keeps me, and such a gift as He saw fit to show me, such a blessing is not one to take lightly, though light she may be. imagine, a nova i can grow alongside my own, shower upon and bask in her radiance at the same time? alhamdulillah, always and forever
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