To be a light for my Lights

أَعُوذُ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّيۡطَٰنِ ٱلرَّجِيمِ، بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

 

 

Often I've spoken about the meaning of a beacon, how it's sought, the why of the matter, the symbolism meshing with and into the literalism. I think it might be worthwhile to discuss the inverse perspective, of how I want to be a beacon myself, for my beloved. It wouldn't quite be fair for me to take in such radiance, without trying to be that at the same time too. Perhaps that's why it's best described as interrelated, the mutual escalation of brilliance simply due to the connections He brought together and apart and together again, at first in physical or emotional terms, then later in some measure of transcendancy that keeps trying to reach into akhirah, into Eternity.

 

Wise people of the past, my Rasool (saw) the foremost of them, feared for their people the temptations of this life, its lures and abysses and traps....especially because these things lead to a complacency and contentedness with this lowest earth, two impulses that suffocate the innate desire of the soul to truly ascend and return back to the place its ancestor came from. 

In His wisdom, my Rabb saw fit to sculpt me as an idealist/dreamer/lover. Such a person can never be satisfied with desire being fulfilled only once or twice or howsoever finite number of times this life could give him. Coinciding with that, there is a level of purity and openness that delving into the ocean requires, a level that...this life, I tell you, can't hold for more than a few seconds at a time before dissipating (perhaps because the most precious things are always scarce and like starlight, something always sought to be closer but for now unable to be permanently so). So it is that the chase towards one's akhirah and eternal khair continues.

 

I have to also note, without my beloved, an Eternity is no place I'd want to be. And how could it be, absent the best, most beautiful and sought-after company? Thus the train of thought encompasses, and tbh was entirely originating from, my beloved; on the one hand is my Creator, with a connection and submission suitable of His slave - and on the other hand are my mortal beloved, seeking proximity and fulfillment and utterly-complete sharing of bliss unending.

 

So thus, eventually my purpose coalesces: Could it be possible for me to become a contrarian temptation, being a lure not for this life, but for the Next? This is what I want to be, where my aims are with respect to how I'd integrate into the lives of my beacons. This life presents us with tons of chances, opportunities to make choices that define the future we find, ...and I want for them(those who are a part of me) = everything, for Ever. Maybe it becomes possible for love to be such a force, the driving force, behind why a human being submits to her Creator. InshaAllah, this is the hope. And my spark, if thou didst wonder, is the chance at unity with my beloved, into an existence that words could never suffice.