the flourish of 2021

أَعُوذُ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّيۡطَٰنِ ٱلرَّجِيمِ، بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ

 

how could the year be complete, without the boogeyman of these past two years finally getting a piece out of me too? so after 2020 being what it was, nearing now the end of 2021, covid finally caught me, in a fittingly ironic set of circumstances of course. last Wednesday night, my Gift and i plan to visit relatives out of state, first time for me. the next morning, last Thursday, my Gift wakes up to a fever and aches and totally sick. alhamdulillah she gets better in 3-5 days, predictably (and knowingly, willingly) in nearness to her, i get to too. some OTC antigen tests eventually show positive, and that's that. i get a forced week off of work, a variety of symptoms i'll never care to see again, and a small/truly mild reminder of the kind of tests awaiting in this life. been able to feel next to nothing, mind concocting minimally anything helpful, and just the general state of 'being sick' predominant. i wish there was a button i could press, to see the visage of my beloved in such moments. something in greenery or in the water and sand at a beach/shoreline, alas